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I consider myself a work in progress and He is not done with me yet! At the age of 60 I am still seeking more knowledge of His Grace every day and acknowledge His love every waking moment. There is not a day that does not gone by that I can not help witnessing His very presence in my life and what I see around me is a living testimony. Faith, Grace, being in His favor is a journey. I have just begun. I believe the quest for the Kingdom is the easy part of the journey. I truly believe that SERVANT is the most honorable title that I could have in this world. There is not a day that goes by that I'm not amazed at the favor God has given me, I see around me all of the Blessings he has bestowed upon me large and small, and I am humbled, brought to my knees by his majesty? How could we not share?
Life and living are about choices and choices are about free will. All of us have free will to make the choices that will have an infinitive impact on our life and those who know us. In my rebellious season (isn’t every journey we take, nothing more than a season?) of life I chose to rebel against anything that remotely involved God. In my rebellion I chose to rebel against anything that stated I had to be normal and go by the status quo or anything that involved God. Though I was raised by a grandmother who loved our Heavenly Father with ever fiber of her being and continuously showed me God in her actions, struggled to direct me to the right path, I chose to struggle in my own darkness and shut my heart to the light. I chose to wear blinders out of anger, and pain and despair because of the hurtful things that happened to me at a very young age. It’s the same story of many young women anywhere USA and around the world. My life was a story of molestation and sexual abuse that created a child that would be given up for adoption because I was a child myself. I would grow up to become and angry and rebellious adult living a life of drinking and more abuse, yet by all appearances living a normal life to those who were not close, because I never let anyone get close. Through a great part of my life I worked, went to school and appeared to be doing well, most people including family knew of the suicidal thoughts and attempts , the binge drinking or the abuse by men in my life, I wore the tough, responsible, well adjusted façade well. God has a way of changing things for us though and it started with me becoming a mother, it started with me letting someone love me and my sons being that one thing that would make right choices. I gave up the drinking, I sought medical health and worked to put myself in the right frame of mind and chose to work in places that would benefit me, this would be my second good choice and would lead me to make the one best choice of all. Though I slowed down in my wildness I had still had that tough girl personality and was over the top in speaking my mind. This one lady I worked with would be in the group; she would always shake head, smile sweetly and softly say “Girl, you need Jesus!” After working side by side with this lady for about year I believe she said to me “Girl, you need Jesus!” a dozen times without me really giving it thought. The more I worked with her the more I was impressed with her Christian attitude and she impressed on me that being a Christian could be a wonderful thing. In her gentle soften way she brought me near to wanting to know Christ and I found myself hanging onto every word and to be like her, to actually know Jesus. One miserable evening at work; but not through her directly God would get my attention. I was at work going through my usual work hard to get away from my problems when such pain and misery came over me I escaped to the restroom to get myself together. I must have sat there in that restroom for about fifteen minutes trying to get myself together when another quiet voice whispered “You, need Jesus” and the force of it all brought me to my knees and I cried “I need you God, I need you now!” I was on my knees in that dirty bathroom stall begging God to heal me, to show me Jesus!
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