I was baptized in the Roman Catholic Church and went to a Catholic school for most of my childhood. I have been exposed to the word of God for most of my childhood life, though the word was hard for me to understand. I would always hear from the leaders of the church about how wrong I was in things, and all that served to do is push me further from God. I went to Catholic school all the way through high school and it served no other purpose for me then to plant a seed of anger. After leaving high school I had become an Emergency Medical Technician. I believed in God, which means I knew that He existed. As an E.M.T. in New York City you will see too many things to not believe in God or some type of supernatural power. It was the churches that pushed me away from the truth about God and His Son. The hypocrisy of the church leaders had served to push me further from God. To illustrate the point let me tell you about what I encountered from a church leader while working as a tire technician. The man came in and told us he was getting tires for his daughter’s car. When the time came to pay for those tires he lied and told us that the car was a church vehicle so that he would not have to pay sales tax on the tires. So this church leader lied for monetary gain. In the process, he pushed four people away from God when his job is to do the opposite. The conversation in the shop after he left was about why none of the four of us attended church, due to the hypocrisy of the leaders. I always felt throughout this time that there was a void, something missing in my life. I had tried to fill that void with various things. I had my own battle with alcohol, which of course that did not work to fill that void. I tried filling that with relationships. All of the relationships that I had also failed to fill the void in my life. Finally, my son was born. I thought that would be the thing to fill that void in my life and for a time it seemed to do so. My son did fill a void in my life, but not the void that I have been talking about. Even with my son there was something missing from my life. The relationship with my son’s mother fell apart. She moved away and due to distance, I do not see my son as often as I would like to. I got into another relationship and that relationship also did not fill the void that was there. She did something for me that I will always be eternally grateful for. She brought me to a local church. This church was different. You could see the pastor believed what he was talking about. Not only did he believe, but he was passionate about the things that he was teaching. This pastor explained the Word of God in such a way that it was easily understood. It was the attitude of the pastors and staff of this church that caught my attention though. They cared for the people of the community and they would show that they care. I began to hear about all of the things that the church does for the people of the town that I live in now. I finally made the decision to give my heart to Christ. My life has been getting better ever since that day. The relationship that I was in fell apart, but I hold no animosity towards her. In fact, I am grateful that she brought me to the place that was able to change my life. It is not that everything has magically become better, I am still in the same position that I was in. The difference is how I view the things in my life now. I now have peace in my life. Do I still fall on hard times? Of course I do. The difference is how I view and approach those hard times when they come. In giving my heart to Christ, I now have peace, peace of mind, emotions, and spirit, that I have never known before. I have a heart full of gratitude for all that I have, especially the people that I have been blessed with in my life.
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